Friday, November 20, 2009

No update

sorry no update until I'm not busy with college ~~~
which I doubt about it D:

Saturday, August 22, 2009

I had to admit...

.....I've been lazy to update my blog// shot

let's make a Q&A thingy of myself to myself >w<

Q: So how's the weather Carmen? O.O

A: Oh the weather have been pleasant not!! It's been so hot during summer and I was wondering how can I survive in Malaysia's weather and not in Canada! My dad bought a tiny portable fan for $40 just to put in the living room. Few days ago a storm appeared and tornado hit other areas and lucky my area is not.. we were worried and try to get the news and radio but everything subsided so far I heard only 1 death occured..sad =(

Q: I'm sorry to hear that..what have you been doing lately?
A: I'm just working part-time at McD to earn some money and I'm gonna use it to buy an ipod (cause I'll be traveling to college soon). Other than that I will online (check DA website, play gaiaonline, watch anime, read manga, drawing, etc). Oh now we finally get our own tv antenna but dad placed it on the backyard floor instead of the roof ~~silly him and now the tv is pretty 'I-call-it-siz
zly' at least my cousins get to watch their favourite cartoon shows (my mum babysit them)

Q: So when are you going to college?
A: I just got my college schedule online! woot! My orientation will be on Septmember 1st and college starts on September 8th. I'm going for one-year Art Fundamental program at Sheridan college :D for now I will stay home and travel with several buses and trains (yes very far

Q: Anything you wanna add before you leave?
A: Oh yes please wish
Melody C a Happy Birthday because her birthday is on August 28th :D

and I miss you guys who are in Malaysia *huggies*!!!!!!!

Q: Wait! before you really leave can you show us some of your latest artwork? >o<
A: haha sure ^^ ..... this is Mr.Emotion, gaia pet and I named him pupu ^o^

Friday, July 31, 2009

Painfully bored

got bored so I doodle chibi Noctis from ff versus 13 <3 *huggles him*

I had a terrible pain on my right end gum
perhaps it has to do with things that I've ate ~peanuts and ice
but I'm suspecting the growing of a new wisdom tooth >o<

but it's really painful >.<

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Like no other..

got bored doodle Vampire Knight boys after reading chapter 52

I praise God for what he had done for me <3
sorry for the disappearing act again lol *poof* I'm back!

What happened to me?
  • Canadians don't blog << yeah right...
  • I was withdrawn from Centennial College because my payment fees were due but in fact we've mailed them weeks earlier but the mail got back to us 10 days after the due date *what the..
  • Praise God Sheridan accepts me for Arts Fundamental, one year program
  • been at gaiaonline too much ~ drawing everyday
  • been to DA at the same time ~~duh~~
  • went to pool party~~ it was awesome swimming and had fun with white people from church
  • it's been weeks not working~~waiting for them to call me for training but finally I will this coming Tuesday...yay for money >w<
  • I GOT AN E-MAIL I'M ACCEPTED TO JOIN 2009 FANEXPO EVENT AS VOLUNTEER!!! I knew that I can't afford to go but I'll try as's my first time to FanExpo!!!!
  • Now I need a transport to that place...
  • went to downtown Eatern Centre (shopping mall) by subway and street cars! with my family :D
  • I guess that's all for now....
*poof* time
*goes to eat ice-cream*

Saturday, July 4, 2009


can't wait for my first pay now~~start dreaming now...
however my first pay will be used to return the debt
I've owed from my dad and my siblings TT__TT

My salary is 9.5 dollars/hour since I've over 18 years old

anyway my orientation starts on Thursday, July 9th
and both my younger sis will be my senior lol XD
will be busy starting next week @__@

Apart from this, I'm moving to another house cause
the landlady wanna take back this house and live...

and I have to figure out how to ride buses till I reach
my college before September classes starts >o<



Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Diet lessons from Hetalia!

For those who doesn't know what is hetalia or APH,
then watch the anime! (1st episode)

I learned something from ep 17...
America was eating too much hamburgers and
he decide to go on a diet....

[click for fullview]

hope you learned something =D
I'm so going for Japanese diet! XD

mata ashita! ^o^V

Hot days...

Mio-chan is a scaredy-cat but she looked so cute when she said' NO'

I really love this song called 'brush and ballpoint pen' (ep 12)~ Mio, the bass player, composer and a vocalist! <3

Lyrics (romanji) :

~Fude Pen Bōru Pen~
Fude pen fu fu
Furueru fu fu
Hajimete kimi e no GREATING CARD
Tokimeku PASSION
Afurete ACTION
Hamida shichau kamo ne

Kimi no egao sotto shite
iitoko misetakunaru you
Jounetsu wo
Furimukase nakya

Ai wo komete surasura to ne
Saa kakidasou
Uketotta kimi ni
Shiawase ga
Tsunagaru you ni

Hashiru kiseki kirakira da ne
Sou kawaku made
Mattete Fude pen
Gomen ne Bōru pen wa
Oyasumi shitete

Kanari honki you

Ai wo komete surasura to ne
Saa kakidasou
Uketotta kimi ni
Shiawase ga

Tsunagaru you ni

Yume wo misete
Gurguru to ne
Ima maiodoru
Ganbare Fude pen
Koko made kitakara
Kanari honki you

man I wish I have all-girls band aih....

oh I found out something here
Yesterday was really a hot day I was like "where is the fan!" sigh...I can't imagine when I'm coming back to Malaysia it's gonna be like 30 degrees there @__@

Monday, June 22, 2009


now left exam review day (getting my results lol) this Wednesday
and then Commencement Award Day on Thursday night > I'll be wearing the graduation hat ^o^

and NOW I CAN DRAW MORE!! (even though I've been drawing during exam week)

btw my Overflow 2009 MP3 CD+DVDs arrived to my house today!
I can listen to the conference message live again and again! XD

once again..."I GOT UR BACK!!"

I'm planning to give this 'thank you' drawing gift to all my teachers ^o^

I got bored and I doodle K-ON! chibi fanart yesterday <3

aww...thank you guys >_O
lol stole this pic from tomica >o<

Saturday, June 20, 2009


nah...hibird says hi XD

  • as usual still searching for summer jobs~~
  • still left with one more exam on Monday then I'm done with high school! XD and been drawing gaiaonline, deviantart as usual (addicted to it) and sometimes neopets or watch K-ON! anime and read manga when bored...
  • I still need money man~~ D:

Tuesday, June 16, 2009


.....starting tomorrow!
.....and ends on Monday! yay! >w<

then I'm free like a bird!! XD
I can't believe high school ends...

then I'm broke~I need summer job
.... and
and watch animes! and more drawings!

wanna share a fanmade APH video..thanks to kirru~chan for sharing this! <3
this is great and I think they should made an opening song for APH! XD

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Don't Say Lazy

sigh I wanted to tell to myself, "Don't say lazy" <----the ending is awesome! anyway yeah that is the lastest anime, K-ON that I found out at Anime North
and I really like it! I love Ritsu, the drummer gal~~haha

not only that I'm obsessed with APH (Axis Power Hetalia)~google it! XD
and I've been trying drawing each of every countries but unfortunately they don't have Malaysia yet..sigh..anyway check it out at my DA gallery ^o^

sorry for a short update cause school is gonna over soon and busy with exams by next 2 weeks! >o<

anyway dad is coming back to Malaysia for this Sunday and going back to Canada on June 19th cause grandma would not live long...please pray for her salvation! and safe journey for my dad....

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


Things I've bought during Anime North!!

Go read my Anime North report at my DA journal...
lazy to write again la.
[Anime North 2009 REPORT!! *warning long journal!!*]

I finally got facebook!! ^__^
I'm adding cosplay pictures at fc
add meh!! XD
I'm Carmen Chang
Doozo yoroshiku

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mum's Day!!

*edit* thank you for those who had participated my food allergies survey I'm truly grateful for you time and cooperation ~ thank you! ^__^

Thank you for EVERYTHING!!
May God bless you always <3

we are going to have dinner with mum today ^^

Overflow 2009!!

I can't wait for this youth conference held at Waterloo, Ontario!
on May 15th- May 17th!!
It's gonna be BAM! WHAM! and wicked!
*I heard there are lots of hot guys there too*

There are 13 youths from
Richmond Hill Pentecostal Church (RHPC)
including me and my sis, Joan C

It's gonna be great! and I can't wait!! XD
On this Friday I have school trip to Art Gallery of Ontario(AGO)
because my design class is studying fashion design now @__@

and last but not least...

can't wait! can't wait!
it's after this week!!
I still haven't think of what to cosplay as...nyaa!! >o< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" size="5">BSS ART's CAFE 09!!
Art/Drama/Music/Family studies departments held this event
at Bayview Secondary School to display artwork, sell stuff for fundraising =D
I'll be selling bookmarks (anime/games/etc)
for charity...

haha great events happening on this month
haha see ya!

Friday, May 1, 2009

Do you have food allergies?

I'm just gonna copy and paste from my DA journal
*edit* Do you have food allergies?

Just as quick survey to fill up for my Food and Nutrition Science class regarding food allergies
it doesn't matter whether you have it or not or where you're from, everyone are welcome to fill up

I just need your e-mail so I can send you all the survey questions
If you need to know something, you can comment here or just send me an e-mail

Thanks! <3

btw mum is coming back on May 2nd so yeah XD

Thursday, April 30, 2009

The New Me


Jenny took this picture with her new iPhone
I realized people noticed me more with this new look
credit to Joan C for cutting and highlighted my hair
If you realized ever since I came to Canada
I don't really have pimples anymore ~ smooth skin
and I do look fairer lol >.O

no time to write busy busy as a bee >.<

Friday, April 24, 2009


Awesomeness and Coolness!
(not fake!)

came to Richmond Hill Pentecostal Church (
to rap and worship the Lord here tonight!

It was so awesome ~ the music, the testimonies,
the preaching and all the coolness there, graffiti and
Laura, the youth pastor, a guest speaker
preached about being a 'Contagious Christians' that we should;
  1. be a good example ~ good testimony to others when people see Jesus in us
  2. be relevant ~ be the culture like rap or talk about music and stuff or stuff to reach out to people especially in school, we have to hang out with all types of group ~ gangsters, emo, etc but does not have to smoke like them but hang out with them and tell them about Jesus....and we have to use our talents to give God the glory people will know Jesus through our gifts
  3. have fellowship with Holy Spirit ~ be silent and alone with God or when we read the Bible and pray, then God will touch us, talk to us and our hearts and help us to be BOLD
the whole group was like crazy cool guys
who love to skateboarding while preaching
to people about Jesus (shown on video)

In the end we came out for prayer and all of us were touched by God
it's been a long time since I've left church in Malaysia and not serving ever since
because I felt insecure about which church to go to
but now I have no doubt that God has a purpose for me to be in this church
and I told Pastor Jonathan (youth pastor of RHPC) that I will serve in this church

I really praise God for everything ^__^


so far life is good, my family have to work harder
to clean up stuff and to cook (I failed at this!)
at home without mum around....

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Sad News

Mum went back to Malaysia
cause my grandpa passed away from neumonia
and suffer greatly without his family on his side
when he died TT__TT
My uncle was on his way to Malaysia but it was too late
Mum will be back on May 9th after all it is done
including attending the funeral and stuff


Sunday, April 5, 2009


YES! I've accepted the offer for Centennial College in Toronto...
it's 4 semester/14 months diploma program for Digital Animation.
I can't wait to experience and know more about this field.
I'm gonna be an animator so watch out for me! haha....

I'm gonna prove to them that I can still be successful
even though I'm not in prestigious colleges! *fists on the air*

I guess I will never stay out of town on my own sigh...

and yay! more pictures taken on April 3rd!

Esther Kuan(from Malaysia too!) and me

me and Kimberly (from Malaysia too!) ~ the future doctor~~

lol XD

me and Elena (Romanian ~~ another future doctor)
why all the smart people @__@ ahaahah XD

me and Vicki (very I mean very artistic girl)
man I wish my art is as geng as hers >.<


Mr.T and me! haha XD
lol is he trying to staple me? @__@

I will upload more pictures later ^__^
gosh I really need to cut my hair
it's getting annoying >.<

Friday, April 3, 2009


OMG cute bumble-bee birthday drawing gift for me!
This is from
Thank you ^^

more and more birthday drawings for me! XD
This is from *rairy
thank you guys <3>

Another birthday gift from *depinz

I'm ma mushroomy!

A birthday gift from my buddy, :icontaziko: Taziko
yes my birthday is today! (April 3rd)

and thank you guys for all the birthday wishes
despite different 12-hours timing...

Love ya! :heart:

*I will edit more pictures from my camera later*

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Getting excited!!

Anime North art contest 2009
well I don't expect to win but join for fun
This is Momiji, a Japanese school girl character
yeah it's kinda's my cg style

YEs! My birthday is coming soon and I simply get so excited over it *dances around*
I have good news to share that the literacy test was easy even though we get extra time or so
and deadline for my I.S.P journal research of an English novel is changed to MONDAY!! yes I can finally have more time to finish reading my book! yippee!!

haha let us celebrate!! XD

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


"I am 19 going on 20

why do I still look young..." (perasan)


I'm going be first time celebrating it in Canada!

Thursday: Literacy Test (whole day)
Friday: MY BIRTHDAY!, cooking assignment
for Food and Nutrition Science class
and deadline for English novel ISP

P.S: I should post more of my artwork the next time I post my blog ~ <3

Sunday, March 29, 2009

La Maison en Petites Cubes

La Maison en Petites Cubes from dorsumi on Vimeo.

La Maison en Petites Cubes = House of small cubes
very meaningful...
I hope one day I can make animation like day *sniff*

Raining bread + weird ending

It's true

My dad was working in this Weston Bakery company as Retail and shipping coordinator and every time he would bring back this french sort of long frozen bread home for us -mindyouitsboxesofbread- apparently the factory wants to throw them away if they did not meet the's totally a waste then that's the story on why my dad brought back the bread. We have to put into oven for more than 400 degrees in 15 minutes and believe me I had eaten it hard and crunchy before cook's horrible! >.<

oh well gonna eat more bread for the rest of my life XD

Have you guys watch Kuroshitsuji?
I simply <3 Sebastian!! nyAaa!!!

The ending is really weird - just weird
I was like "that's it?" lol...
That does not explain to me about
the puppet master, sebastian's true form and, so on *spoilers*
Maybe I should read the manga >.<
Tell me what do you guys think of it

Friday, March 27, 2009

This year is not my year...

oh noes..

I didn't get into Sheridan College for its famous animation bachelor program...I felt so sad because it's my first choice and I got rejected. Then I didn't get into Seneca college for same diploma program (still competitive one..) and it was my 2nd choice..

I don't know how I'm suppose to feel right now..
I felt disappointed...

Maybe I should wait for other offers? or go for Sheridan's Art Fundamentals,
a year to improve my skill...

My portfolio score is 2.14 but they only offer people with 2.78 to 2.96 for waiting list

-I'm in field hockey team last semester but I'm not allow to play (paper work and stuff)
-I'm in badminton team (mix-double) but apparently I'm too old (more than 6 years of highschool)...I feel bad for my partner..that's not fair!

felt like failure in life

Monday, March 23, 2009

Today is...

Well I'm back to school with my new dye hair! woot! lol it's.....blueish-black! and you want to know how it looks like?'s BLACK! lol waste money only...

I dyed my hair last night and I thought it works out blue but it turned darker than before but when it shines it's blueish and only one person who knew I dyed my hair..aih..oh well I need to earn money to dye other colour next time...

Both of my 2nd period and 4th period teacher was absent and I'm able to do some of my work. I told my friends about the incident in the swimming pool where I saw Mr.T that other day (4th period teacher), and Esther Kuan laughed the most about it and other girl (oh shoot! I forgot her name! >.<) started to have pervert thought of Mr.T and me ( I was wearing bikini that time~lol!). She said Mr.T won't be coming to school because he was embarassed or something like that and it's true! He was absent during our next class. They begin to laugh at this joke and start telling other people (in our group lol!)...funny very funny guys...

aww...guys! thank you so much! I miss you guys too! *on tears*

Friday, March 20, 2009


Today is official day for SPRING season!!! (flowers yeah!)
honestly holidays are going to end soon and I haven't start my assignments at all
Usually holidays are time for me to draw more other than art assignments =P

I went to Bayview Hill Community Centre for swimming (gosh I didn't swim for a long time)
with Melody C, Joan C, Jerlyne, Shawn Goh (her poodle, both from Singapore~crazy dudes!) and Lawrence (Jerlyne's bf). There I saw lots of friends from same school ~ Sammy (my sis's korean friend), Kevin, Brad (same 1st Semester social science class), Betty (she is a lifeguard there) and lol I saw Mr. Trynoponous (or MR.T) my Greek art & design class teacher with his kids. Oookay...

Lol I wore bikini for the first time and the crowd is like wow...the water is warmer in kids' pool and adults are usually accompany them or they are in the 'deep' pool. I went to the slide twice and it was pretty high I mean the distance between end of the slide and the pool. Kevin and Shawn race who will be the fastest but for course Shawn lost cause he didn't practice for months since he came to Canada. Unfortunately Jerlyn doesn't know how to swim but her faithful and loyal boyfriend hug and protect We went to the sauna but it wasn't that hot XD

Funny part when we are about to leave, we had to shower right..but the thing is the shower has no doors nor any curtains! Well some ladies or kids are naked when they showered and Jerlyn is brave enough to stripped her bra when she shower. Oh well Canada is too open. For the guys, I heard that they refuse to stripped in front of kids for shower so basically they just rinse themselves and drenched with chlorine or pee pool water. hahaha...

Then we head to home! I had fun =P

Joan, Jerlyn and me
(after showering)

combing our hair

and this is Shawn Goh (the poodle)
yeah he dyed his hair at my sis's co-op salon

I must dye my hair! XD

Thursday, March 19, 2009


Nice song

Lyrics extract from






Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Bad news

Today I received a letter from Seneca College where I applied for the same Animation program but I got turn down but they offer me a waiting list for Art Fundamental (1 year program to prepare for my portfolio). Though Seneca College is my 2nd choice but I'm pretty scared now because Sheridan College (my first choice for the same Animation program) is more picky in portfolio evaluation. However I've applied for Art Fundamentals at Sheridan for back-up just in case I don't get into that Bachelor of Applied Arts (Animation) *biting my nails*

Now I'm still waiting for the results from Sheridan college
I really want to get in so badly! >.<

Carmen, you should trust in God (talking to herself)

Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.


I have another portfolio to hand in tomorrow
to Centennial College
so wish me luck! :D

P.S: I still haven't dye my hair yet >.<

Monday, March 16, 2009


Vincent Valentine
My latest obsession!~yeah I know he's hot!
from Final Fantasy VII Dirge of Cerberus

I think they should make whole cg movies of this game

I guess I will re-watch Crisis Core again hehe..
lol final fantasy fanatic now X3 sis called me this afternoon and told me that the red dye coloured hair product has not arrived yet so I have to wait till next week. I think it is better to dye at home rather than going to salon but I still want to dye my hair as blueish-black.

I will be going to Value Village (2nd-hand shop) to buy my cosplay materials or at least I will have to sew them together. I'm planning to let my hair grew a bit longer at least for AnimeNorth cosplay so now I can tie my hair and looked at least feminine.

For this whole week of holiday I will try to finish off my gaia commissions and read my I.S.P book ~ Memoirs of a geisha hopefully finish reading it at the end of the week. I have to do a bit of research for my English class.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

AnimeNorth 2009

Did I tell you guys that I'm coming to AnimeNorth with Adrian Matu this year? Yeah we are anime freaks..Thanks to him helping me pay with paypal, it only cost $45 CDN for single pre-registration (of course I pay back lol!)

I get so excited over this because this is my first time going to anime convention in my entire life. It held on May 22-24, located in the Toronto Congress Center (downtown). I'm going to COSPLAY! but I couldn't figure what anime characters to cosplay as... can you guys give me a hint? Well pervert Adrian wants me to dress as a sexy girl but well he knows that won't happen! lol!! XD but yeah it's going to be like girl theme maybe high school girl with uniforms *and skirts*..hmm...

I want to open a booth actually but then I would like to visit the first time before I start selling anything but for now I'm saving money to buy stuff at AN *I'm a poor student TT__TT*

I'm going to bring my camera and going to take lots of pictures! and with artists as well..I'm planning to visit some of my Deviantart friends' booth =D ~ stalk them and buy all of their stuff! *muhahaha!!*

lol Adrian is planning to bring his sleeping bag for sleepover there cause staying at the hotel cost a lot!

As I've said ~ I CAN'T WAIT!!

I will dye my hair RED tomorrow at my sis's CO-OP salon for free! =D


Let me just recall events that happened for the past few weeks..

On March 2nd, I skipped school to hand in my sheridan portfolio at 8.00a.m. It was an hour drive from where I stay and the college is pretty far. I was alone with no friend but I met a guy, Roman Rajbhandari, he is half-Russian and his mother is from Nepal. He was same age as me, working but hoping to get into this prestigious-highly-competitive animation program. Only 125 people are selected out of 600 applicants who apply for this program (Imagine most of the people who applied are from Deviantart). That means I have to be the best among the best. Basically on that day I just submit the portfolio and wait for information session at 10a.m. where I listen to the 1st, 2nd and 4th year's expriences at sheridan then...we went for a tour around the huge campus! This the best part because I get to see 2nd-4th year student's workplace where each of them receive a cubicle/workplace to work at their assignments and I thought to myself that I really have to get one as well. All of students' work are hanged or stick on the wall and it was AMAZING! This really fuels me to get into this college so badly! >.< (I included it as well)

then, I went back home. It was great exprience but waiting for the results is killing me! The results/offer will be out at the end of March/early April. I'm telling myself that if I didn't make into this Bachelor program, I will go for Art Fundamentals for a year to improve my portfolio submissions before I apply again next year?

Anyway PRAY FOR ME GUYS! I'm getting so nervous whether I can get in! >o<

Saturday, March 14, 2009


sink into the deepest ocean
where memories are buried...forever..

FINALLY it's MARCH BREAK!! A full week of holidays!
I can draw more stuff and update my journal since I'm pretty free now

Friday, February 27, 2009

Oh noes

Yesterday we had this Black history month, and my school had invited a singer, Julie Black (I never heard of her before) - not to sing but to say a quick speech about her life and her dream similar to Martin Luther King had said about 'I have a dream'. It was cool. She even showed her music video for us to watch.

Oh noes..

I have to worry about my Sheridan portfolio now...


Saturday, February 21, 2009


DETERMINATION! except for the saliva

Just wanna keep track of my Sheridan portfolio

Life drawing (3/3)
Animal drawing (2/2)
Hand drawing (2/2)
Character rotation (5/5)
*Action pose (2/2)
Expression sheet (5/5)
Storyboarding (4/4)
Layout (2/2)
Room line drawing (0/2)
Personal artwork (3/5)

*indicate work in progress or need to transfer on new sheets of papers

I may want to redo or redraw some of them again..
it looks crappy to me...
I'm suck at perspective..sigh*

I need to attend Seneca college for a mandatory orientation session and to hand in my other portfolio this Monday evening